The Eyes

(This is my second attempt on writing poetry. I hope it's not as bad as I thought it is. T^T The time to make this is less than half an hour... I'm currently really busy)

We met long time ago
Long enough that I don't remember anymore
Except those black, deep, mysterious eyes
Staring at me intensely
And instantly I knew, a long road we'll go together

Back then I was young
Reckless and damn arrogant
Your sweet, sweet words trapped me
And I was drowned that I can't breathe
Lost inside your poison

You killed the arrogance in me
Not in a nice way, never
But such beautiful, beautiful spell
Just simply can't be compared to others

The love you showed was clear
And so I thought, carelessly,
"You love me"
So I stupidly, responded

But then, all the excuses
The mask that I realize began to disappear
Your eyes lost their glows
Replaced by those black, sharp, lifeless eyes

The cold good bye that felt different
You showed me that you love me, but why you say goodbye?
Do you wait for so long for this?

And so it hit me
The real you that I see through
The one that I never see before
It hit me hard

So again, thoughtlessly, I cried
I cried and cried, killing all feelings I have left for you
Don't leave me with only excuses
It didn't manage to came out again
Voice that drifted off right on the tip of my tongue

I really wanted to go
To start over, to lead a better life
To run away from you

But no, I can't do that
Though I had made up my mind
Though I had tried damn hard to move on
Though I had fucking struggled!

Those eyes, again
Though different, but the same
Weakened me
And all my decisions

I wondered why God let you have those eyes
Those eyes that are different but the same

You're cruel, you know that?
Or for exact, your devil eyes are
It pulled me down to the bottom, blinding me
Making me fall and fall again

So I foolishly thought again
That I can endure
Just to be with you
Just to stand there beside you

But you let me down again
And that time it had been decided
That this trashy love will keep me no more

So I laughed as I shrugged it of, cause in front of you it doesn't matter
I want to let go, I want to be free
And though I beg, you would never be the same
Let me laugh now, okay?

Then later on the day
I, desperately
Prayed

I prayed for myself
Begging for salvation
For you are my biggest temptation
For I am powerless against you
So when you woke later, I won't be there for you
For God had taken me away from you
For God had provided me mercy

And I, lastly, with all my might
Prayed for you, my love
Who completely understand me
Who I deeply love with my soul
For whom I gladly let all myself fall
For whom I would wish that the day of salvation never come

And for once in my life
I felt at ease

And so I disappear

But then I met the other you
From the other place of far away
The different but the same

And as much as I hate him, I just can't help but love him more

Stupid?
I hope not as much

But sometimes our eyes will lock
And I can't help
But thought
That we completely understand each other

We met long time ago
Long enough that I don't remember anymore
Except those black, deep, mysterious eyes
Staring at me intensely